Trapped

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Trapped

I also had two salvia trips but only consider one to be a true trip. In the first one, i took a relatively small hit of 40x and instantly was in hysterics, falling back onto the bed as if everything in the world was hilarious. Things seemed a little strange but i knew where i was and was aware i had taken the drug.

However, my second hit was not so fun, although looking back i am very glad i did it. This time, my friends had taken their hits and were on the bed. I loaded the pipe and inhaled a massive throat burning hit which had instant effects. My body felt immediately loose and weak and i had to take the support of the window ledge knowing i could definitely not reach the bed at the other side of the room. I then seemed to black out and when i came too i could not see anything at all of what was my friends garden. I was in a completely different world, one which i felt i had been in forever. At this point i remember my friend came and leaned on my back, telling me i would be ok after seeing the distress i was in. But in my head, i knew i wasnt ok. I remember thinking hes ok, hes loving this but i hate it. It was like me and him were the only people that had ever existed and we were trapped somewhere.
I spun around to face the bed and the visions i saw whilst turning where all merged in together and were repeated and repeated over and over even when i had fully turned and i knew i was stationary. I just kept seeing visions of previous movement over and over. It was the same for my voice, hearing my speech slowed down massively, like every word was being said on the drastically slow beat of my heart. I seemed to black out between beats, missing things. I still could not see any of the room but was in a completely white universe with a single track going on forever and ever through the center. I began to walk down the track and as i did, i could hear laughter (from my friends) and this made my feelings worse. For the first time i realised i had taken the drug and now concluded that they were in the real world and i had lost my mind, gone insane and i was their entertainment. I now was determined to get out of there, but everything i did felt futile because id move around trying to get out but i would be seeing things from what felt like ages ago. I seemed to be making no progress atall, in both telling them i was mentally gone (help me) and actually leaving the world. I was now really freaking out and felt like i was on the verge of a panic attack. The trippy sgt peppers album was making things much worse but i knew towards the end of the trip that it would end, i just need to stay calm, let time pass.

I gradually began to see the room again and my friends and was releaved that it was coming to an end. But still, my peripheral vision did not exist and as soon as i focussed on something, it felt like i was about to re enter the strange world. This kept making me scared and i had to walk around the room constantly to not focus on anything. I was completely confused even at this stage of the trip. I could not work out if this was reality or just another stage of the trip. I continually asked my friends "is this real" but their answers didn't help me as their obviously lies i thought. This was true paranoia. What made it worse was the amount of time i was tripping. It had been nearly 45 minutes and it stated that the trip would last 10-15 minutes maximum on the packet. I thought, i must be trapped for it to go on this long.
I did thankfully eventually come out of the trip, the feeling slowly disintegrating and normality returning. But i needed to leave the room, to turn the music off, remove the bed cover. Everything in their reminded me of it and i could feel myself returning, panicking. We left and i made full recovery. I initially thought never will i take salvia again, but after a few weeks of reflection, what i went through intrigues me greatly. I want to understand the things i saw and try to be in a controlled state of mind whilst being there.

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